just some -ing’s.

eating: the snack that smiles back πŸ™‚
drinking:Β h2o
listening to: stay alive by jose gonzalez
watching:Β hopefully finally catching up on sherlock now that I got the netflix free trial!
reading:Β just finished mockingjay for the second time and re-felt the feels. ;(
missing: my cat. (and my family too, i guess. ❀ )


you make beautiful things,

you make beautiful things out of the dust. -gungor

I don’t know where to begin, so I guess I’ll start with two weeks and one day ago. The day I moved to Pittsburgh to start a new school, a new adventure,Β a new life in a place I fell in love with on a mission trip three years ago. There’s a long story behind it that I’ll tell you someday, but seeing as it’s 12:42 a.m. and I have to wake up in exactly eight hours and sixteen minutes to do some reading that I’ve been procrastinating on (welcome to the life of an English major)… that day is not today.

However, I will tell you the meaning behind this blog name (fun fact: this is my fifth blog. I have what people like to call blog ADD. However, I’m making a promise to myself and to you that I will do my best to stick with this one until graduation!) Anyway, according to one of my fave websites, dictionary.com,Β metamorphosis (noun) is:

1) a profound change in form from one stage to the next in the life history of an organism, as from the caterpillar to the pupa and from the pupa to the adult butterfly.
2) a complete change of form, structure, or substance, as transformation by magic or witchcraft.
3) any complete change in appearance, character, circumstances, etc.
4) a form resulting from any such change.
5) Botany. the structural or functional modification of a plant organ or structure during its development.

So basically, metamorphosis = the process of change, transformation, etc. and the result of that process. So why is this the name of my blog? First of all, I really like this random quote that’s in colorful letters on a Hallmark magnet my sister got me for my birthday: “just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly…” (proverb) I’ve always liked butterflies, and I love the idea of the complete transformation they undergo as caterpillars simply chillin’ in their cocoons. I also just love the whole concept of redemption in general, and I think that metamorphosis is nature’s beautiful picture of that- taking something as lowly as a caterpillar and turning it into something as lovely as a butterfly. (Unless you’re afraid of butterflies… then that’s a really bad illustration.)

And no, I don’t think this experience will completely change who I am, and I’m not saying that I want it to. What I do want is for it to change my heart. I’m not sure what that will look like. I hope it will be something along the lines of me loving more like Jesus and better understanding his love for me and for others. I hope it looks like me being more confident in who I am in Christ and more bold in telling others about who he is. I hope it looks like me growing in my faith and my knowledge of him and developing the gifts and passions he’s given me. I hope it looks like me becoming his hands and feet to serve and give hope to the people in this city that I am now a part of. I hope it looks like something beautiful.

Revelation 21:5 says “He who was seated on the throne said, ‘I am making everything new!’ Then he said, ‘Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.'”

God is making me new. He is taking my messy, broken, selfish, ugly heart and making it- piece by loving piece- into a glorious masterpiece. And he’s doing the same for you, friend. He’s doing the same for you.