Today is all kinds of bittersweet. My heart is full, but it’s also heavy. I’ve said goodbye to many wonderful people over the past few days, including but not limited to: my roommates, my friend who lives in England, some of the best friends I’ve ever had – people who have genuinely changed my heart and my life this year – and even some friends that I just started getting to know but already care so deeply about. It’s hard to say goodbye, even if it’s more of a “see you later,” and it’s weird and sad and scary to think that this is the end of both my first and second to last year at Pitt.
But at the same time, my heart is so hopeful for the hello’s to come. For the new apartment I’ll be living in next year with one of the best friends I mentioned, for the small brick-walled room with a beautiful view of Schenley Park that will be mine. For the friendships that will continue to grow and the new ones that will be made when I come back. And for the people who are waiting for me at home now, the family I miss so dearly and the friends I can’t wait to reunite with. For the junior and senior high girls I spent the past two years getting to know and love and grow with as a youth volunteer and intern at my church, and for the new ones I get to meet and begin building relationships with now that I have an opportunity to intern there again (which I am so incredibly thankful for). ❤
And through it all I have a God who is the same yesterday, today, and forever; whose perfect love and endless faithfulness are the anchors I cling to in a sea of tears and confusion and change and goodbyes. I ended last summer singing the song Oceans by Hillsong in an ocean (yes a literal ocean, you should try it sometime 🙂 ) In that moment I was feeling a lot of the same emotions I’m feeling now as I prepared to say goodbye to my home and friends and family and say hello to Pittsburgh, the place that would become my second home. I want to start this summer, this new adventure God has in store for me in the place that has and will always be my real home, singing those same words:
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.